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Natassha Stansilas. 21. educator by profession.
*a critic in every sense.
i am complicated.
I like to eat teddy bears so hide yours well if you want to save it.

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CBOX.

SHOUTMIX

Monday, March 31, 2008 @ 8:02 AM

@ 7:56 AM

bleah.
i am waiting for the next weekend to rest my brains a lil
on a happier note.
this is for you sweetheart.

i miss all the fun times we used to have.
all the camping,
the drinking,
doing things together,
catching the movies,
sentosa,
and just being with you in every little step of the way,

i just wanted to say after this long,
i still feel the same way about you,
i still wanna hold your hand every single time,
i still want you beside me all the time.

i love you.
happy anniversary.
your my rainbow in the storm

Friday, March 28, 2008 @ 6:10 PM

@ 5:55 PM

one entire week is gone at work.

i rushed through my lesson plans and prep work,being a friday yesterday.

now i just have to brainstorm on interesting ideas to use with the kids over the weekend.

i am so frustrated cos the weekend was kept aside for my boy and my family,

but obviously i am gonna abandon all plans to finish my work.

i hardly have time to spend with anyone including myself.

i havent did a manicure for myself in ages,

or sit down infront of the television with a huge tub of ice cream,

or just simply sorting out my own things?

my whole week is occupied with school and teaching.

i know this is for my entire future,but just sometimes i need to breathe.

ohhwells,

dear lord,please show me some light.

i'm thinking going for afternoon service at novena to start the day off,

and then i'll carry on finishing my work.

i'mm off to buzz vinitha.

HAPPY WEEKEND!

Wednesday, March 26, 2008 @ 5:18 AM

@ 4:59 AM

please slap me on the face and tell me its not a dream.

I AM A TEACHER.
(as in a seriously went through the darn interview and got the job!)

my heart's been pounding non stop.
and I'm getting my diploma in early childhood!

for those out there especially if you're parents,
there are certain facts that you ought to know.

1. Handling children that are below 6 years old isn't as easy as A B or C.
2. A teacher is more like their part time mum when you drop them off at school.
3. They are not easy to discipline (cos we aren't allowed to scold or use any form of violence)
4. While you're at work we are forcing them to eat their greens and meat.
5. They being children need to be bath,fed and put to sleep on time (not forgetting those who are on milk)
6. While you put the milk powder in their milk cans,it is definitely our responsibility to make sure they finish their milk.
7. We of course have to sort out their differences and problems with other kids cos their too young.
8. We instill values in them
9. We observe their every single move to avoid dispute.
10. We do this because we simply LOVE them.

my first week was great though.
the kids were amazing.
though everyday wasn't a Sunday,i managed well
and they are attached to me even though i am a new teacher.
i love my kids.
they put a smile on my face every single day though the day may seem a little rough for them.
they are just beyond description.

I'll add some photos of them the next time

Sunday, March 16, 2008 @ 10:30 PM

@ 9:32 PM

i swear.. i wear an halo


alrights so i havent been uploading pictures for a pretty long time- everyone knows that.
but i will soon so not to worry.
okay so the parent's wedding anniversary went pretty okay i should say
EXCEPT for the fact that my boy wasnt bothered finding them a nice little place to do a bit of a celebration.

so here is what his view was

* i mean its your wedding anniversary. you should bring your wife somewhere and revive or recall your special memories together.
instead of calling the children along to have dinner with yawl.
its your day not ours.
-quoted by him

okay he does have a point. but. but. they want to spend it with us.
so suprise them.do something out of the usual.

so we all had dinner at dempsey.
drank wine.
talked.
while the two brother's went to play pool
leaving me alone with THEIR parents i should say.
either ways.
the night was pretty fabulous i reckon.
after dinner,
my baby wanted to catch a movie since it was pretty late and The Grand Cathay was open for late night movies.
unfortunately.the place was so packed.
so catching a movie seemed impossible.
we played pool instead.


so my weekend was great i should say.

@ 9:30 PM

"The rest of your life is a long time and whether you know it or not it's being shaped right now. You can choose to blame your circumstances on fate or bad luck or bad choices or you can fight back. Things aren't always going to be fair in the real world, that's just the way it is but for the most part you get what you give. Let me ask you all a question. What's worse not getting everything you wished for or getting it but finding out it's not enough? The rest of your life is being shaped right now with the dreams you chase, the choices you make and the person you decide to be. The rest of your life is a long time and the rest of your life starts right now. "
- Haley (One Tree Hill Season 5)

Friday, March 14, 2008 @ 12:23 AM

Capricorn - Your Love Profile

Your positive traits: You are serious about relationships and ready for a commitment. You tend to help your partner attain the success they dream of. You are a rock. Relationship problems don't seem to phase you. Your negative traits: Sometimes it's very hard for you to accept your partner's past. You are emotionally reserved, and difficult to connect with. You expect your partner to take care of you - and make cheat if they do not Your ideal partner: Is incredibly powerful and well respected. Is often older than you - and could be a superior at work. Has a good amount of money... or the ability to be rich someday. Your dating style: Practical. A "get to know each other" coffee date is just fine by you. Your seduction style: Bossy - you like to be the one in charge in the bedroom. Slow and patient. You know that good sex takes time. Calculating. You'll use sex to get ahead, if necessary. Tips for the future: Open up. A little emotional expression is a good thing in relationships. Leap before you look. You don't have to run a cost benefit sheet on everyone you date. Enjoy the now. No need to worry about marriage on the first few dates. Best color to attract mate: Dark green Best day for a date: Saturday

What's" Your Love Profile?

@ 12:00 AM

i miss this mother f**ker

O.M.F.G

Thursday, March 13, 2008 @ 10:29 PM

and as cliche as it sounds..


WHEN ONE DOOR CLOSES


TWO OTHER'S OPEN

and i am a witness of it. i swear.
so this is what actually happened.
i applied for a course
and requested for a sponsorship or a subsidy to be specific
went to one company (i will not mention which one)
and she said yes it is totally fine and i have a company that would give you full sponsorship.
but you will have to be bonded.
and i was like
O.M.F.G
how come it was so effing easy?
so i waited for the company to ring me up
for what seems AGES

and while i was at work on Friday.
this other lady rang me up and asked if she could have an appointment with me
regarding the course i wanted to do.
at first i sorta linked this to the the other company that i applied for.
but apparently it wasn't the same company.
and boy was i pretty taken aback
it was like a miracle.
when i felt like all my hope was crashed
this beam of light comes over me.
so i met her and everything
and BINGO!


SHE GOT ME AN EFFING INTERVIEW
SHE GOT ME A SUBSIDISED RATE FOR MY COURSE THOUGH THE SUM IS STILL NOT EXACTLY VERY SMALL.
SHE GOT ME TRAINING ALLOWANCE,TO RECOVER BACK THE COST OF MY COURSE FEE.
SHE GOT ME A WORK AND STUDY PROGRAMME

it is totally awesome shit.
now i really cant wait to ace that interview.
though i realise that i need to put in alot of time into this and i may not have time for anything
but i am willing to do it
and give my all to it.

phew.
i miss my girlfriends.
i miss our jb trip
i miss our lunches.
i miss our pool visits.
i miss our sleepovers.

but i hope you are all doing fine.
xoxo

Monday, March 10, 2008 @ 10:14 PM

please tell me the latest hair fashion trend is super coolshi*t

@ 9:53 PM

i miss sitting under the sun with my mind free

@ 9:13 PM

It's 100% Love and 0% Lust

You and your guy are truly in love, even if that spark seems to be a little dimmer.

Are Your Feelings For Him Lust or Love?

i wanna be stuck in a time capsule

@ 11:36 AM

ouhkays.i haven't been able to stop and think about anything lately.
time has been running through my fingers,
and i have neglected almost everyone.
abandoned my family.
YES!
it is pretty bad as it sounds.
i badly wanna be near the people i love.
i haven't even got a manicure for what seems ages.
anyhow,

aiights,so this coming fifteen would be my boyfriend's parents anniversary.
and we were supposed to go for dinner.
(the venue not decided yet)
gifts gifts gifts!
hah!

my boy and i went on like a speed shopping trip i should say on Sunday.
we went to PS to get a nice little bag for the mum
and a stripy shirt for the dad (not that he needs horizontal lines to create the illusion of him being tall)
EITHER WAYS
it was a pretty fast shopping trip.
we just walked into john little
and i am like..


"hey darling this a pretty nice handbag to take around.."

and he's like


"ohhyea! it is.
let's just get this one for her."

and I'm like

"ohh wait there's another one and this one and that one."

and he's like..

"lets just get this honey..
we still gotta look for gift for dad"

(the same thing applied to the gift we got dad)

and so..
we headed to SECRET RECIPE for dinner.
cause as i am like the queen that has all her budgets planned.
we just wanted to be free of it for just one day.
but then again.
we didn't exactly eat much
cos i wasn't really hungry.
but i was looking forward to dessert though
WALNUT BROWNIE WITH A DOLLOP OF VANILLA ICE CREAM AND FUDGE SAUCE
yummy as it sounds.
but not exactly the best brownie i ever tasted.

@ 10:15 AM

ima capricorn

Sunday, March 9, 2008 @ 9:49 PM

Lets101 Quizzes - blog quizzes

i hope your reading this too.

Thursday, March 6, 2008 @ 7:32 PM

this is for you sweetheart

new frens don't really play a big role in my life as much as yawl do.
that's a f**king promise i make.
and i know that i have let yawl down in every possible way,
but each time i try to make up,it isn't fruitful.
i know all this is my fault,and it may seem like i am moving on with my life without the rest of you.
but i am certainly not.
you may choose either to believe me or not.
but i seriously DO GI VA F**K
i wouldn't call when i am available if i didnt care or bother
and MTF? whose family without yawl?
in case you didn't realise..
i was blinded by lies before but not anymore girl.
they say "there should be a reason to everything you do"
and yes i do have one,
its not because i have forgotten the whole bunch of you.
HELL NO!
i would be the stupidest person to do that.
IF NOT FOR YOU,I WOULDN'T BE WHERE I AM EMOTIONALLY IN LIFE NOW.
i hope you remembered that.
and heyy.
wanna know another part of truth?
I REALLY MISS EVERY SINGLE ONE OF YAWL SO FUCKING MUCH.
and those LOSERS that just came into my life,
they can never take the place of all of you.
honey,
there are many things in my life that needs to be sorted out.
i am in a mess.
at this exact moment.
there's many things i wish i could do but i just cant.
there's many things i wish i knew but i just don't.
but please just hang in there for me.
i just need a lil more time.
please do not give up.
i am not trying to paint a different colour with an old brush.
and neither have you all become so worthless in my life.
the cliche part of this is i am the most emotional in character amongst yawl.
and you could think that i thought of yawl to be worthless?
gee!
i hope that was out of anger.
dont fail to remember that each of you represent a world in me;a world possible not born til yawl arrived.
you opened my eyes to new ideas,changing the way i saw the world and myself.
i know you demand an answer for why this is all happening or rather why am i doing this.
but please do understand that i did not pray for this happen,and neither did i want it to.
i treasure every single one of you,and the memories that we all shared cannot be erased from me even if i went thru a memory relapse.
just a little time and not to give up,is all i ask.



silent secrets
my heart's a stone
if i'm not beautiful
i'll be alone

my thoughts feel ugly
i say goodbye
if i cant be perfect
i'll surely die

i feel like a rainbow

Monday, March 3, 2008 @ 6:16 PM

ouuuhhhh terrrrriiifffiiicc!!!!


where did i last put the full stop?
ohhwells!
so yesterday i was at work teaching this new Chinese guy about the practices at the workplace,
and thank god for the rain cos there was barely any work to do.
well i couldn't help but feel rather lethargic yesterday.
either ways i am gonna find for a new job,
cos i am totally drained from this one.

I JUST NEED SOME NEW EXPERIENCES IN A DIFFERENT LINE

plus plus plus!
i am going for an interview today pertaining to my education
mannn
i am so excited
and i pray to god that I'd get past this interview and be open to other opportunities.
i am wanting to get to the peak of my life at this moment.
i just want something fulfilling.


and i forgot that i was supposed to thread my overgrown ugly eyebrows today
but i guess I'll just leave it to tomorrow's agenda since,

I AM GOING CLUBBING!

i am so thrilled!
nonono!
not about clubbing!
about my whole life.




xoxo
i hope yawl have a great day!

Sunday, March 2, 2008 @ 9:08 PM

i stare blankly but there's alot i wanna write about actually..

Friday night was great.
Clifton.arwin and i went to boss-this new Indian club.
and we opened a JB bottle.okay actually the Bourbon whiskey didn't taste that bad,
but that night was great.
after that we went for early breakfast and to admit,i was pretty much drained by the activities of the whole day.
okay so headed back to the boyfriend's house,
cleaned up the rabbit,
washed everything,
cleaned its little paws,
and we were too exhausted for anything else but sleep.


THE WORST PART!
I FORGOT OUR ANNIVERSARY AND HE HAD TO REMIND ME
IN THE EVENING!

i was like DAMN!
how the f**k could i have forgot.
I'm super sorry baybee..

ohh wells,we had dinner at home,
and spent the rest of the Saturday in his house.
the whole day to rejuvenate!
TOTALLY AWESOME SHIT!




MY WEEKEND WAS AWESOME!

took you a little farther away from me

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