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Thursday, February 28, 2008 @ 8:33 AM
A little bit of solo time probably sounds good to you right now, doesn't it? It makes sense, after all the time and energy you have been giving to other people lately. A little bit of rest and relaxation will not only revitalize your heart and your soul, but it will remind those around you that you cannot be taken for granted. You are there to help -- not there to be used. Treat yourself well and get all the beauty sleep you feel you need right now.
okay so this was what my horoscope said,
and maybe its so true
i need a FUCKING break from
every
MOVING
thing
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Tuesday, February 26, 2008 @ 8:49 PM
oouuhhhh LIFE'S BEING A BITCH
i stare at the screen with tears down my face,
cos of how horrible i feel about everything,
my shit job,
my education,
my whole life,
past,
present,
future.
i hate these past few days,
thoughts just keep running,
no one's beside me to tell me that everythings okay.
ouh i hate this feeling so much
i just wanna go back to being a kid,
where i could just run back to mommy and be wrapped in her arms
and hear her whisper to me, 'everything's gonna be fine'
i wanna go back to being a kid where you dont have to make decisions for yourself,
and your perfectly content with the slightest things.
the feeling of being loved,
the feeling of being protected,
the feeling of not having to worry,
the contentment,
the joy,
everything.
so yesterday
@ 10:44 AM
its been quite a while since i created a significant post,therefore i shall do so now.
its been a while since i really thought about what i really wanted to achieve in life.
the feeling of wanting to achieve something is great but the process of trying to accomplish something is the complex part of things.
presently my vocation is pretty screwed up because firstly i havent sorted out my life,secondly i am wanting to settle down with a great job and thirdly,i just wanna live my life content.
getting a decent job is all i want first,
so i talk a diploma in early childhood,becoming a preeschool teacher,marriage,two kids.
yesyes
i know thats a bit too far,
but there's so much i want to accomplish but my ability to do so seems to be rather insufficient.
my question is why?
yea well,everyone does want to make it big one day.
but the path isnt easy.
there are crossroads.
and yes,
i failed once,twice
but i am gonna get a stable job,a great cert that gets me some where,a boutique of my own,and every other luxury that i earn.
if not today,someday.
so this i pray,
and dear god,
please listen to what i say,
i know i am part of your creation
and i am not a mistake though sometimes i feel that way.
i knw that you have put me in where i am for a reason and a purpose.
let not my will be done but yours.
please guide me in all that i do,
and show me the purpose that you had in mind for me.
amen.
Sunday, February 24, 2008 @ 9:08 PM
he is so hot! i swear i could eat him like dessert.
@ 8:33 PM
Wednesday, February 20, 2008 @ 8:10 PM
i love you with all my heart
and i'll never wanna see you go.
Tuesday, February 19, 2008 @ 9:40 PM
Monday, February 18, 2008 @ 9:26 PM
im gonna resign
@ 7:34 PM
alot has been going on in life so far,and i havent had the time to stop and think everything through.
it all seems like a jetplane.
(how it takes off so fast)
my job is begining to become a chore and it sucks.
i hate the idea of waking up and dragging myself to work.
totally mundane.
but ohwells,
there's been alot of politics there too.
so much that i have decided to resign.
and find for a new job.
yesyes.
i realise that there are politics in every workplace.
but i simply cannot accept people who do not recognise my efforts and those who take credit for the work that i do.
its unacceptable.
Sunday, February 17, 2008 @ 8:15 PM
i love you forever and always.
thank you for everything.
thank you for sticking up for me.
thank you for being you
distressed.
Monday, February 11, 2008 @ 10:07 PM
guess whose back?
I AM!
ive been caught up at work for the past month without a friggin' off!
and it was about time i did do a bit of soul searching.the past month hasnt been really good for me in some reason.dont get it wrong,its not the boyfriend or anything realted to that.
in fact he has helped me grow as a person in many ways.
especially in kindly raising the limit to my patience level.
but its just when im not around him,certain things just haunt me.
the people who once used to be around me would know the capability of my emotions or the fact that i am very frail when it comes to dealing with situations that involve emotions.
at this present moment i am not emotionally charged. i am currently emotionally drained.
everything around me seems so dark and depressing.
all of it seems so obscure and profound.
i greatly miss the times i spent in ij.the times i shared with the good frens i made.
the times where we had each other to cry or lean on.
the times where we would share our problems and sorrows.the times where we stood strong for each other.the times where we were content in each other's presence.the mass,the reflection days,the reconcillations,the forgiveness,the camps,the team bonding,the teachings,the catholic practice,the stupid quarrels on the the design of the class t shirt,the celebrating of each other's birthday,the cheating during physical education,the skipping of class,the countless lectures we used to get,the night study's which was wasted on art coursework,the stress for prelims and exams,the intensive revision and just that sense of belonging that you were important in some way or another.
at this point,i know i haved sinned in every way,if not in every other way.
god have mercy on me.
please
YOU ARE MY STRENGTH WHEN I AM WEAK.
i had a bad day
Monday, February 4, 2008 @ 8:07 PM
i havent been blogging for a friggin' long time.
but let me fill you in with the current status of things going on in my life.
BOYFREN: GREAT
WORK: I'M HANGING ON
love him so much..Can't wait to marry him!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
all i need in this life of sin is me and my boyfren
@ 8:01 PM
@ 8:01 PM
how it feels ?
@ 7:55 PM
took you a little farther away from me
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